Monday, November 27, 2006
2 min to midnite....n i jz started blogging...hmm very tired nw lying on the sofa..wat else jz t back from being a wedding helper...
Apart from the norm of carrying plate n stuff...then hav to unbind the curtain on the ceiling tat somehow decorate the void deck...so troublesome hav to stacj bout 6-7 chairs n climb unsrcewing the F-clamp...well tat nt my job actually but im doin tis fer u kak gerl...jz pity her...
Ok let stop my boring entry tis tym...bout my personal lyf...well somehow i hav confessed my feelin towards her...not really confession but a hint...n further than tat...im nt ready...ahaha...
So gotta get back to sch tmr....cya...
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Friday, November 24, 2006
Jz when im down, u r there 2 comfort me….in the midst of our frenship, I take it personally…in the past…. We wld hav a gd conversation bout ourselves n problem tat we had almost every nite…it such a wonderful to share tat affection wit u n it nvr get bored…it fact it keep better each tym…but then u r attached…
So each day I tried to take things lightly n tried to run away from u…from reality…but no I hav decided to msg u as a fwen…not because I lyk u admire as it used to b…im jz worried nt to hear any news from u….then tis morning….jz as I plan to take things lightly….the old feelin came back to haunt me….the msg I received from u is jz too personal for me…..
(^^,),The loveliest day is
Wen u wake Up 2 Find
Tat Love Still
Colors Up World
Thru People Whu
True Care & Never Fail 2 rmb u…..
It may b a normal msg to u…in fact I hav received similar msg ample tym…msg tat hav been forwarded many tym…but im nt sure particularly fer tis one but the crush tat I once had fer u jz made tis msg much special than usual…
Therefore, sometym I owaeyz wonder to myself n hav started thinking n believing to my own principle…Drmz will owaeyz remain as drmz…
So guyz, do treasure wat u hav…
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Monday, November 13, 2006
Have nt been blogging fer a while nw...jz hav to take cre of some important stuff...
Jz feel so damn tired n fell nt comin to sch again...but no i hav promised to myself to kick tat habit from myself regardless of anytin from nw on...
My wkend hav rather been filled wit so many stuff...last Saturday, went to spent my Hari Raya wit my secondary sch mate...got back at arnd 1.30 am..nt only tat...i spent the f***cking $19 on taxi fares...
Then yesterday wasted another $13 for taxi fair coz im late fer werk...aargh!!! nw i hav to spent wisely...bout my werk yesterday, i still felt that exhaustion...werkin as a wedding helper or kendarat...im jz so tired tat my brk i did not spent tym to eat but instead to rest...thnkz ya guyz fer being so understanding n giv me tym to rest...i salute u guyz so much!!!
Then todae, still have to attend to the Children Volunteer program briefing wit some of the volunteer although there no tuition...hav to plan fer some program or rather games fer these grp to prepare them for PSLE nxt yr...pheww im jz so tired...
Still, i noe i hav to hang on n stay focus...i noe i will make it...if nt fer myself...but fer them.....
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Monday, November 06, 2006
Jz got back from my usual routine...teachin tuition todae...but tis tym tound i did not teach tuition coz exam r over...pheww...instead im involve in a meetin....
Rather awkward as it was my first tym....but slowly i tink i can fit in...well discuss bout some of the upcoming problem for a grp of children from the welfare home...im gonna be volunteer for tis programme n gonna find 5 more....u guyz interested? jz approach me ya....
Besides tat,rather been bz tis day handling a lot of staff...studies, guitar n oso the upcoming volunteer programme....then i will start back werking as kendarat again almost every wkend fer month of Nov n Dec coz there will b alot of project...so will b lookin ferward to tat..
Fer nw i need a brk...a short brk i mean...b4 the massive event comin up.....
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Well i hav jz sent an email...it realli took me a lot of courage....finding the rite words...especially when she hav fallen fer me.....but sori..i jz couldn't accept u tat tis point of tym...my mind is jz confused....if u happened to read tis entry, i noe i shld't hav made tis public but i need to let u noe hw much i treasure the normal frenship tat we hav built...still u hav been tat special fwen to me...dun worry i wld not expose what the content of our email...
It jz not so easy fer...especially when i knew tat someone admire me n i do not return the same favour back...it jz hurt...i hav gone throught the same things....
Still i hope tat u wld carry on wit ur lyf n tat we ald remain as wat we r...i wld owaeyz pray tat u wld find a better partner than me....im jz so sorry.....
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
Todae hav been ather a 'sian' day fer me...notin much...jz lazing arnd doin notin....not realli tat 'notin'...well i mean did not do anytin so 'extrodinaire' todae except fer playin guitar n most importantly brushing up on my vocal practises on karaoke....
Now i realised tat i hav a lot to learn...especially when nowadays my voice hav not been rather consistent...hmm i guess it becoz of lack of practise...once i intend to find a vocal teacher fer myself....n still i aimed to accomlished tat hopefully before i decide to participate in any singing competition...well hopefully ya...
Besides tat, i wanna thnkz Serra if u read my entry...ur advice yesterday had really helped me in solving my personal prob...i owe u ya...
Till now gtg....dun wanna skip sch again!!!
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
Fer the first tym i went jln raye with the 7 dearest...well not solely them but mainly wit their sec sch fwen...i noe it will b awkward but then i dun wanna disappoint them...
Rather feelin awkward mixing arnd wit their fwen at first but slowly ya they treat me well....dun worry lah the 7 dearest keep pestering me to talk to them...i noe wat to do lah...
Actually if any of u the 7 dearest read my entry....ya first of all thnkz ya fer inviting me and introduce me to all ur fwen...yup i hav fun a lot...but then i realli apologize fer nt realli communicate so much...it nt tat i felt awkward but a lot of thung was goin through my mind at tat point of tym..regarding sometin personal...
Well had been thinkin bout the prob since i received ur email....i jz couldn't concentrate on my guitar prac...i dun even care tat i was given THE BEST COMITTEE MEMBER OF THE MONTH OF OCT....but it have no meanin fer me...wat matter is tat i dun wanna brk ur heart n tat i wanna us to continue being fwen...
Bout the email...im sori if U read my blog n i have to publicize tis....im thnkful n appreciate very much fer ur confession in the email....rest assure i won't expose whu u r....but i jz hope u will take slowly...im sure tat u wld find a better person fer me...im jz so sorry....i hav no intention to brk ur heart...i noe hw u feel....but i jz luv to usual fwenship tat we build...so i hope tat fer nw, let remain as wat we r....u will still b my special fwen k.....(^^,)
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Again n again i keep skipping sch...n nw im not at home..jz dun wanna my parents to find out..i noe i should't do tis..but i jz dun noe wat been happening to me in tis few days...i felt tat im searchin fer sometin but i dun even noe wat it is...i noe im missin sometin..but no i tink i hav got everytin..
Actually, im jz confused...i hav a feelin of guilt fer skipping to sch...i hav oso feelin tat sometin tat is missin n nw searchin wat tat is...fer nw i noe i will nvr noe wat im searchin fer...
N bout skippin sch...my reason is simple...i jz dun noe wat im goin to sch fer...the day i spent in sch is only to be there...not realli to study...but i noe i hav to change..but nt nw...when my heart is still not there....
€€zack h i p h o p p e d @ 11:16 AM {
Again n again i keep skipping sch...n nw im not at home..jz dun wanna my parents to find out..i noe i should't do tis..but i jz dun noe wat been happening to me in tis few days...i felt tat im searchin fer sometin but i dun even noe wat it is...i noe im missin sometin..but no i tink i hav got everytin..
Actually, im jz confused...i hav a feelin of guilt fer skipping to sch...i hav oso feelin tat sometin tat is missin n nw searchin wat tat is...fer nw i noe i will nvr noe wat im searchin fer...
N bout skippin sch...my reason is simple...i jz dun noe wat im goin to sch fer...the day i spent in sch is only to be there...not realli to study...but i noe i hav to change..but nt nw...when my heart is still not there....
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